I'm so thrilled to find a Y open today, Sunday - last night the Charleston Y closed at 6pm, even tho the internet said it's open until 10...grrrr. As I was trapped by the parade, I didn't get to the y until 5:50pm so another day, not working out.
This Huntington Y is huge with two pools, several womyn's locker rooms, steam room and sauna inside the womyn's locker room! And I get to exercise upstairs, in front of a bank of windows overlooking the parking lot, while keeping an eye on my truck. Several people take pics but no one leaves a note!
When I go to leave, a big solid white man with a bald head and large beard eases around my truck and starts
talking at me before I get a chance to put my gym things away. He is quite
upset about the white and male war and appears to be really wanting to express
his response.
He tells me I look like I’m probably 50 like he is and so
we understand each other. Hmmmm – I’m 68 for the record.
He claims he’s lived thru riots, that his parents were
poor and they lived in the ghetto. Doing the math quickly – he’s 53 – I tell
him that would make him three and four if he’s talking about the response to
the murder of MLK, which he is.
He demands that I admit Black people can be as racist as
white people, which of course I challenge. He gets so angry, he’s spitting and
shouting, his bald head reddening so brightly I’m worried he’ll have a heart
attack. He is here to work out, I assume, but he doesn’t appear to be that healthy, more
fat than solid.
I tell him I’m not going to talk with him if he can’t
stop yelling at me, interrupting every time I try to speak. He calms down,
apologizes, then his eyes fill with tears, voice wavering, as he curses Black
people that are drug dealers, going so far as to say ‘they’ all need to be
killed.
I am alarmed by his threat as I try to talk steer him in the direction of drug corporations & his
lack of anger toward them. He wants me to prove that oil companies are not the richest in the world, but he has calmed down a little.
So I decide to ask him who uses more illegal drugs in this
country, white or Black people. He looks at me as if I asked him did the sun
come up today. He is adamant it is Black people who are drug dealers,
murderers, and destroying his beautiful town of Charleston.
When I tell him the same exact percentage of Blacks and
whites use illegal drugs - 13% of both populations - BUT Black people are incarcerated at 70% and whites at
13%, he demands that I prove that too. I ask him if he wants to buy my book but he
doesn’t because he’s a poor truck driver who hates to read.
I tell him I love to read and spend many hours every day
of my 68 years reading, researching, uncovering facts from lies.
He is not happy but at least he’s not still shouting at
me. I leave him with the challenge to take his eyes off Black people and to start looking at those white people at
the top who are pulling the strings and go after them.
Scary fella...
1 Comments:
At 3/11/18 9:13 PM, Anonymous said…
That is absolutely terrifying. I am so glad you got out of that encounter safely. White men and their anger. White male anger is the most horrifying thing I've experienced. It's the source of many of my personal traumas. In my young life I don't know if I have ever witnessed while male anger being used constructively. Only destructively. They need to learn to examine their emotions and responses and stop seeking to exert power with violence and anger. Their destructive anger will never better the world.
I've learned to be terrified of all anger. But I am glad to see anger like your's, Xan. Anger that is powerful and used constructively, anger used to fight oppressive systems.
I am amazed by your ability to encounter terrifying angry men like that and keep going. Angry white men make me shut down and want to give up. You are inspiring, you are a hero. You are powerful.
Wishing you well!
-Tabitha
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