ALL lives matter....but white lives matter more!

Have to pump my veggie oil from my storage tank into my main tank – I was putting it thru the filter but it was coming out sooooooo slow – it’s slow anyway cause it’s a small pump. I swear I’m gonna get a stronger pump.

But this long layover at a rest stop has 'allowed' me to have a very frustrating 30 minute conversation with a mid-western white womon Cheryl who drove slowly by me standing at the open back of my truck and shouted she was pissed & insulted that I say Black lives matter – she wants me to say All lives matter. 

I invite her to stop and park and get out and talk with me. When she approaches, I say yes of course ALL lives matter, but white lives matter more.

She is able to deny this vehemently while claiming SHE'S not racist while looking accusingly at moi, and says she can point to affluent black people and on the other hand she can point to poor white people.

I point out she’s right & pointing counting with one hand, but you can’t count ALL rich white people cause there’s so many; or ALL poor Black people cause there’s so many. I tell her she’s not acknowledging the economic statistics of this country where the richest 1% down to maybe the riches 50% are 100 percent white and the poorest bottom 30% are majority Black, Native, and others of color.

I ask her if she understands that Black Lives Matter is about police brutality and killings of Black and brown people. She whines forcefully white people get killed too by police and Black people kill police officers.

Oy vey. I ask her to slow down and does she know that a Black womon, child or man gets killed every 28 hours by police in this country? She demands to know how many white people get killed by police. I tell her not as many.

I ask her if she thinks police should be killing people, Black or white? She thinks they’re just killing criminals. I bring her around to the #SayHerName side of my truck and read a few names and ages of the girls and womyn murdered by police. She is silent.

I ask when did it become the job of the police instead of the courts to decide to kill anyone and before she can say anything I ask her if she believes in a democracy.

I tell her I was in Washington D.C. 2 years ago when the police and fire departments were having a national day of recognition of the men and womyn in uniform who died that year in the line of duty. Can you guess how many police murders there were in the whole country?

She shrugs, telling me must be thousands. I said 47 and that’s both departments combined. And do you know how they died? According to you, they died at the hands of Black people. No, the majority died in car accidents on the way to or away from a call out.

But she just did not want to see. She’s not a racist and here's her proof: when she was growing up she wanted to know where the Black families were, where the Asian families were, how come she only had white friends and white dolls.

When I said and what answer were you told, she said Black people have to make it happen, Asians have to make it happen. I asked her you don’t think that white people are 'permitted' to congregate in a certain more affluent neighborhood, or that white doll makers manufacture white dolls – isn’t this an indication white lives matter?

She adroitly blames Planned Parenthood for murdering black people (not the police) because she claims 50% of abortions performed are ‘against’ black babies. Where do these people get off? Their mentality, what are they thinking?

I ask her how many resources has she shared, how many services has she provided for Black mothers so they can have the resources to raise healthy children. 

Her mom is waiting patiently in her parked and idling car so off she goes, not bothering to answer my question. I just want to shout at her your wrong your wrong your wrong - and I HOPE someday you'll know it...grrrrr

Now I’m thinking I’m spending all my daytime hours pumping veggie oil because my solar is not strong enuff to pump at nite – I could have found a plug and used electricity to pump that way after dark but I’d rather run solar.

Several ‘fuck u’s’ in this part of Nebraska – white skinhead males

I hate that this country is so ugly.